Learning Swimming in College…

Year 2016:-

I see a sea/ocean for the first time in my life in South East Asia. I was with my friends, from all kinds of different countries, representing in an exchange program. Its first time for everything….I get very excited…. till I slip inside the water…
WHOOOSH….
I thought the Sun I’m seeing above the Pari Island, Jakarta would be my last one till my Swiss buddy pulls me out

Fast forward to year 2017….I’m back in Pakistan. Its Summer holiday time in college but I’m still stuck in Summer program to improve my grades 😦

I thought…My university has access to one of the finest pools of the world…Lets conquer that stupid fear of last year and learn to swim

Wearing a light blue silicon cap and swimming shots, as a compulsion to enter the pool, I went inside. I cleaned my feet with the disinfectant and scaled down the ladder of 6 feet pool….

BUT WAIT!!!

I took about 2 steps down and that fear of last year came alive today…I went out of the pool…again tried to come…but it felt as if I’m traversing down an ocean with mighty waves…

I went to a nearby pool of 3 feet…The irony being a 6 feet + guy struggling in a 3 feet pool 😀

But…it felt much friendlier than the larger pool. I started practicing the breathing exercises I learnt on Youtube…Did some sit ups…tried to walk inside the pool

The instructor advised me to put on the pool tube and then try to swim…

MANNNN!!!!The feeling was awesome.

I felt like that cartoon “Bojack Horseman” …being the most important person in the world, chilling over the pool….I even tried backflips, diving, butterfly,…that is ofcourse, wearing the pool tube….

I once read that once, Jason Statham had been an excellent diver. I hope to get that kind of physique…..Well…Swimming is a good exercise….Who knows – my baby fats might melt due to my struggle and I might even get a better physique than him….

Its been two days now…and journey has been good. Hopefully next time I go to pool, I’ll wear the tube and go for the big pool….

I AIN’T SCARED NO MORE….. 😉

My first Paragliding Experience…

This rugged mountainous area – That beautiful blue lake in the middle – The scorching sun – The fear of falling off the parachute in mid air…where am I?
Alright…enough of these thoughts…Let’s grab up a backpack and scale that 300 feet peak…
1st flight…number 3rd with a red glider…Buckling the harness-nervously hearing the staff instructions-the wind fiddling with the glider,pulling me off in the other direction…I ran…I ran on the steep slope …..
WHEE…Lovely! This just feels like “Just Cause” A professional right turn of the glider…Yayyy…There’s my flag where I gotta land….Ground approaching closer and closer…breaks applied…
One foolish mistake made: I didn’t move with the glider…Crash landing became my destiny and I skided off my knees and my arse in the field….Luckily no injury though…Scolded by staff for having a very well ride yet a very stupid landing
The suckiest part is always carrying the heavy backpack up to the peak..
Next comes 2nd flight…This time deep breaths – confident and wanting to earn the respect of the staff..I wear the backpack-tie up the harness once more
A large black glider and a large time duration flight welcomed my fate…
You know you reach a state of orgasm and a world of ecstacy when you’re up in the air – floating effortlessly…and having a thought pondering over the fact that us humans are so weak – so puny…against the scary Godly atmosphere…We can declare many proud statements but are no match when we’re up,swinging like a piece of thin cobweb against strong air…
Anyways…the second flight was wow…I may not have the exact words to describe my flight but I can tell you about my landing….
Near the end of the flight – both breaks pulled down, perfectly executing a flawless landing on both feet.
Literally enjoyed every bit of my flying emotions!!!

I wanted to kiss her today…

This is me…sitting inside the bus…and I look out of the window…I see Mona Sax in her uniform.
There’s still about an hour in sunset and a little breeze can be felt on one’s face. I see her, in all of her awe-inspiring figure. I try to smile, then look towards right and left, deflect my perverting gaze…see my friends teasing me by pointing my eyes towards her…and then with courage! I Look at her again.
Hahahah…..I don’t know. Today she looked beautiful. She looked serene – like a proud tree with shady top and slimmer roots …
And I wanted to kiss her.
Touch her glossy lips – Drink the water out of them-Tell her how my insides smile whenever I see her…..
The bus was travelling on the road and my face was being caked by the gentle air of the near evening. I enjoyed all my thoughts…Till, I remembered a quote I once read:-

“Emotions cannot be allowed to interfere with what’s right”

Meh~Gotta see the greater good….She deserves better.

I wish…

I wish I could make you laugh again
I wish I could tell you how much you mean to me
I wish I could show you from my own eyes how beautiful you are
I wish I could kiss your forehead one more time
I wish I could see you again when I feel your scent around me
Inspite of all these wishes…
I wish I could reunite you with yourself again 😦

To the murderers of society…

To the murderers of society
I wasn’t born with a gold spoon in my mouth
My father was an alcoholic
and my mother worked as a maid in other people’s homes to meet both ends
In a world of lust – love was unknown to me
As a poster child of materialism – Money was my only religion
I lived for myself because the cruel wold taught me so
Too old – silver haired and with various diseases
my soul as much stained as the sins I committed to keep myself alive
I now know that what I done was not worth it
But I was innocent – the system engulfed me
The heartless didn’t give a damn about me
while the so called “religious” judged me
Alas – if the heartless could give a damn
and the so called ” religious” could love an imperfect being like me
Maybe….I would’ve been different
Maybe….I would’ve been different

Dear David Copperfield

You remind me of someone
To Tommy Traddles – My lifelong funny friend from a middle class family, I just admire so much of your certain charms
and To James Steerforth – To my rich friend, who fights with me for his own selfish swarms
To Mr.Creakle – That bad teacher, responsible for my demise through his bullying & physical punishments
and To Aunt Peggotty – My favorite eccentric aunt who takes care of me when I was all alone in my fate of ill torments
To Dora – The love who dies in my own arms and I couldn’t do anything about it
and To Agnes -My advisor and best friend who becomes my better half by accepting me as I am, bit by bit.
Dear David Copperfield – You remind me of someone…
But O dear David – Who do you remind me of ?

The solid aims of hollow thoughts…

Go on child…Enjoy your life. Eat – drink – get laid…bla bla bla…I don’t care…well…I do care…I do get jealous sometimes…but what matters most is…you’re happy.
I believe we meet many people in life and we can love lots of people in our life. I feel special enough to have a connection with her at one point of our lives.
Life is fast and my undergraduate studies are tough …+ we both are in different regions of the world……but I now make an aim…I aim to bring the best in her…I want her to lessen her stupid mistakes she does in life and live a good life
I do love her – I do care about her…and I believe this trait of mine makes me strong…I don’t care with whom she is – as long as she’s happy …I’m happy..
“The life of this world is nothing but a temporary illusion” – even the stimulation theory of Science proves it…I believe the life we live is a sort of test. Some things will forever be in our favour and somethings will forever be against us.
I believe in my heart that I’ll meet her again in this world or another…
Right now – university life is with all its pressure…I want to work hard – get good grades – make my parents proud…and continue making difference in the lives of people around me….
This girl was one of my life’s greatest achievement at one point of my life….but my work is not done yet. I want to tell her so much more…..I believe miracles do exist but you have to work for them…Just like a miracle once happened in my life – I believe lots of miracles will come again…It won’t be easy. There will come many points in my life where I’ll feel I failed…but if I continue – and don’t give up – I know I can make it…..Its just like one of those Sherlock Holmes moments “The game is on”….
A friendly advice: Don’t overthink – just work hard and keep your intentions pure…You’ll soon eat the fruit of your hardwork.

22 October 2016 (Some random thoughts today)

IDK…Life is weird. Sometimes you want a thing – when you achieve that thing – you want more…or sometimes – you don’t want that thing at all. Constantly torn between “if its meant to be – it will be” and “if you want something – go out there and grab it”

Life is weird…sometimes you question yourself – Are you on the right track? You made it this far – Will you be able to do more? or will you give up?

Will you sink into the valley of depression or will you be happy?

And sometimes an inner voice(faith) hits you up and say…”Heyyy! You survived through worse. Come on – you can easily survive this phase. Good things are just around the corner” and then you end up smiling, looking at the sky

I guess its just one of those times – when you need someone to hug you-listen to you and say to you “Everything is gonna be alright” ….That someone could be someone you love – someone you miss ……or it could be…YOU….YOURSELF…..

 

 

 

Hahhahah….

Sometimes she gets confused and asks me…….Why do you care so much?

She says to me I wish I could show you from my own eyes- how good you are….You’re almost too good to be true…..Hahahaha….I mean…It sounds so funny when someone says that. No-one ever said that to me before….It sounds nice to be honest 🙂

She says she misses my nagging – about me lecturing her on how to have a better lifestyle…and she says she misses putting her head on my shoulders.

Sometimes we both talk about intellectual perspectives of life and we both learn from each other.

And sometimes I think about her…like a flower who is badly damaged by the society. Alas! How I wish that she could have a better life… I do mention her in my prayers and pray that she leads a good life.

Today she said to me…What if I tell you to fuck off and don’t care…?Will you still care?

I told her that she can say me a 100 times to fuck off and not care – Still…I’ll care about her

To me – the definition of love is more than a dick inside a pussy. To me its caring for someone – protecting their secrets – mentioning their good health in one’s prayers…

I guess I loved her….That’s why I will care for her. Hell!! I’ll even be happy if she’s not with me.

She’s a great girl. I wish that she realizes her potential – doesn’t do too much weird shits in life…and ofc…find happiness in genuine pleasures of life.

24 August 2016

She said Thank you…for caring…she appreciated me…and she said me don’t be sorry…if the thought of failure haunts you…because you tried…
And she said…I think its a very brave thing to love someone
I wish and I pray for her betterness…Everyday she’s in my prayers.
At the end – I asked her if she had any complains from her buddy?
To which she said to me :-
” Fuck you….. for leaving me ”
She has got so much potential….I just wish she doesn’t waste herself and her life gets better with time