I met a stranger girl online some months ago who lives far away from my home (in another part of country). Both of us being unmarried, we thought we would develop a safe space for each other to let off our steam without expecting anything back.
Both of us talked about ambitions, fears, goals, stuff that is important to us.
I guess when its a stranger talking, you know they can’t harm you in sense, they live far away from you and have never met you and only way to judge them is through the reply they write to you.
Gradually, we exchanged numbers, sent voice notes to each other and brought mental closure. She recently changed her city and took admission into a university.
Today, I went to her university and met her for the first time. I am grinning typing this but its another type of feeling that you are seeing someone for the first time and yet it feels you know them since a very long time. The gestures, the talking way, the reactions – its Deja Vu
Why I think very highly of her? She’s a survivalist, a fighter, someone who doesn’t waste her food, is not into mindless pomp and show. She came from an abusive household where parents did not share much love but in her actions, there is kindness. Her actions imply what she has suffered in her life, she doesn’t want others to suffer it. But why does this attract me? Because I can feel/empathize how others people live their life/survivor’s guilt/abundance mindset, dedicating time to a purpose, confronting your villains by working on yourself, getting rid of her gaslighting – all these things I guess!
I am an extrovert – someone who enjoys conversing but the most beautiful moment with her was sitting on the bench, being silent, feeling the air around!
We both don’t owe each other anything but I like to believe we both are well wishers of each other, safe space providers and I hope we get to write our endings which turn out better for both of us! (Irrespective of wherever we are in the world)